AM I NOBODY?
I have lots of projects in my mind to do; but at the end of day I am frustrated to see the barren land of my creativity : spread as an arid desert with cactus ! .. Writing gives me joy; but my comfortable 'used-to -relationship' with pen and papers has been tragically swapped by new interest with computer .
Sometime fantastic ideas pop up in me during the time of taking morning walk or shower,.. cutting vegetables etc ; I wanted to caged them ,framed them ! But as I feel a tug of war between contradictory thoughts in the mind to decide where to write: in traditional pen and paper or in internet, the ideas become either fugitive or lost; because ideas have the speed of pegasus while hand moves on keyboard as slow as a snail.
When I started to writing blog in the Google to improve my "typing" speed, I wrote them for my own pleasure . I joined some creative writing class where many more were published authors; they displayed their newly published books with hard bindings and attractive cover . I became quite impressed but at the same time turned myself into fire flies; I started spending much time to learn computer than to practice writing .
I began to take free computer classes in senior center and nearby library. But most of the seniors were interested in social media ,games ,photoshop, e-mail writing and not Microsoft words . The instructor was much busy with them. So I didn't learn Microsoft properly . In the trial and error practice of "Online Submission " I lost several pieces of my writing . I applied in several small publishing houses as an assistant editor //or a freelance writer /, but get no response. I tried to calm and. console myself.....................
It came into my mind that any famous writer as 'new' begins his /her journey as unknown ; Perhaps Emily Dickinson wrote a poem which (became famous and a niche later on ) in her early period of poetic journey ;
"Who are you? .....are you nobody, too?"
YES! .......I am nobody ;...........
but I want to be somebody.
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