Friday, December 31, 2021

Sipra's Diary : Shedding//letting go.( Sent to IWWG)

 


                                              SHEDDING// LETTING  GO.  Sipra  Roy  

              # Oct,2021,      IWWG:                                                    Words:

         

The entire creation of earth , both animate and inanimate ,goes hand in hand in harmony with nature, except the human specie.They flow with the nature, accepting  its different  seasons either rough or friendly. In the rainy season plants  grow lush  green leaves  but shed them in winter to give way to the spring to  welcome  new life with budding leaves.  They fight only for their own survival but never try to supersede nature. They are destined to do so  coherently.  Similarly, snakes and some  other insects also shed their skin as nature intends them so to sustain  their  welfare.

Is there  any specific season of  "emotional  shedding' for human?  Certainly not; Though we  wait eagerly to enjoy and to appreciate each year  the  beauty  of  shedding leaves that  autumn  creates,  but we are the last creature to apply or to follow that principle. Most of us suffer from emotional maladies  for losing  the wisdom of sacrificing or "shedding"; Human  emotion contains  some adhesive content . It delivers  twin products of both positive and negative  feeling such as :love and hate, joy and sorrow,  loss and gain, weak and strong, Jealousy and pride, attachment and detachment   and so on ...

Tide of positive emotion charges energy to surge new enthusiasm which is good not only for own sake but also effective for the entire environment  around him /her. But when it is negative ,then emotional typhoon  ransacks the life of the person  who is victim; Often it become adhesive for a long time and  creates mental, physical, relational  and also social problems .It gives stress, depression and even may  end in suicide . In modern time, the rich and upper middle class,  globally, suffer in a realm of emotional haze and mist. This is why we see  psychotherapists  and yoga schools are mushrooming everywhere around  the globe, specially among rich countries and wealthier people.

Surprisingly, 'shedding" happens to human  specie  when things go wrong with them, when life flutters in negativity! The best creativity in arts and literature flourish at saddest moments, in painful situation when  mind. is broken and torn apart by failure and sadness. All the  famous epic came out of pain , out of tragedy;

"Our sweetest memories are those that tell of saddest stories".

We can see the achievements of Jackson Pollock, SylviaPlath, Anne sexton and many more as burning examples. 

We the human,  should take lesson from nature's environment   how to flow consistently with nature. Fear of unknowable future,  anxiety of insecurity and dishonoring nature as super power  have created this distance ;we are cocooned  in them like silk worm ;fear of  death ,fear of various diseases come one after another like unstoppable waves; they hold leash to allow us to be carefree.  This is the plight as well as price  of becoming human specie  as superior being; this is the universal Story of  each and everyone of us , you and me!  In contrast with the rest species of nature it is hard for us to  surrender at the alter of "letting go"! 

                     While mind is crazy and heart howls,

                     Let me hold and  possess  what I wish,

                     How can I sing along, 'let it be! let it be!'         

Sipra Roy Sep 25,2021.

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Sipra's Diary: { REALISATION-_} Sensory organs: ***Story of The Great Emperor Akbar.

    Print:Jan 18/2022       Sensory organ      Sipra Ry 

We have five sensory organs, nose for breathing,,  ear for listening eyes for seeing, skin for touch-feeling, tongue for tasting .Out of these five organs who evolved first ? Did they evolve simultaneously at the same time?

I was watching animal planet  in TV;   some animals have two or three fingers while human has five; both in fore limbs and hind limbs; So it flashed in my mind that  all these organs of living beings evolved gradually according to the necessity and influence of the     environment.Who was the first among sensory organs to evolve first?.......

I think that skin which. is the covering of body  is the first one to evolve .  Skin was full of pores or outlet  which was the source of breathing, hearing, seeing,  tasting . About 5oo to 6oo  million years ago earthworm burrowed on the seafloor ;may be they are the key to the evolution of living kingdom.

Darwin noted earthworm are extremely sensitive to vibrations. Fossil is the common ancestor of all worms .Earthworms are the best tiller of earth.Their body had sects,if a portion of it is cut ,it is replaced by  new growth . Skin gave proxy to all other senses;  even procreation.

In course of time hearing organ came out ;  as  division of labour enables one to be better able and  efficient;  so after hearing, breathing   organ  evolved   Most probably, hearing and breathing evolved simultaneously at the same time; then  mouth came up to consume food.. Eyes were the latest organ to evolve . Eyes and ear  performed combined  the  job of brain .   

So skin  is the source or  prime  powerhouse to the origin of  ear to hear,  nose to  breath,  eyes  to see,   and mouth to eat& taste .  As soon as the  eyes opened  the "data' ' informations "started to collect in the storage box which is known  later as brain .  

  Eyes are the   first  source of all disaster! In conversation we often use that 'at  last eyes opened', which means awareness  or the  agility of brain to catch  up experiences     . "Eyes opened "declares the dominance of sensory organs over the depth of inner SPIRIT OR soul.

  Power of sight  created   sensual desire of choice for  liking & disliking.  The prime relationship between all living organisms  was food  ( either eat or to be eaten ) and sex  Before the origin of eyes whatever comes within the range of  living organisms they ate and also  they mate without any   discrimination. Now as they learnt to move they chased  after their choice of food and sex; This movement created heat and electricity in body.

Eyes enabled them to differentiate which one gives more satisfaction to the senses .All these happened in a time when the world was occupied mostly with water.   The food charged heat and electricity which in turn created sex in body .At the very beginning there was no male or female sex. Each and every  singular body contained   the double sex in themselves. The best example  of our known worm or insect is earthworm.   Many. other  lower- living milli-meter sized small   insects also  are able to reproduce . Fish of deep ocean were able to produce male part  from their own body when they  felt  to reproduce . So life proliferated from singularity in the beginning .

Plants who  are our  primitive  ancestors also provide the  same  truth.

   A childhood  experience  about "Lojjaboti lata"(=a creeper plant), flashes in my mind as I am writing.  I and my friend hid ourselves , while playing ,behind  a   Calvert which was covered by green creeper with superfine leaves. My friend said ,"Do you notice the fun?  As She touched the creeper  all the leaves of the creeper folded as if they fell into   sudden sleep . With surprise I started to touch  the all parts of the creeper  to make the leaves sleep .I was surprised and  felt  it more exciting than the game of hide and seek. My friend whispered this is known as  'touch-me-not"creeper. But the leaves awake within short period .That was a great fun to learn about plant . 

With the help of  ear,   eyes formed  the 'first'. basement of  brain. Ear, nose, throat  are so closely related that  they  respond to one another; they are accessaries of brain . In medical science  we take appointment to ENT doc for the related problem  in any one of them. Pituitary gland is very important ; It is a pea-sized organ, housed  in the bony structure at the base of brain ; it is the master gland ; it drive the other glands to release hormones in all vital parts like brain ,skin, energy , vision, blood pressure, reproductive organs etc.In one word it is the power house of a body.

We take little care about our ear which is the main  source of knowledge .In acupuncture treatment the doctor treated in this area to treat any part of the body. It is same as. the main  switch -box  suppling electricity connected  to the whole nervous system of our body.

Animals use the five sensory organs differently according to their need and ability. Say for instance: bats use their ears to see; moles use their nose to dig mud to shelter while the elephants  use their. trunk/nose for bath , snakes use their mouth both to breath and swallow; chamelions have fantastic sight  and capacity to hide  by camofladging;  scents and color of flowers  attract the   butterfly; Sometime they use scent as trap .They use the sense-organ to protect themselves from predators; animals with .whiskers around mouth work like antenna ;The   hair/ fur  of polar bear in the arctic region conserve  heat of the sun like optic fibre wire  to keep the body warm in cold.....Dogs'. skin  don't sweat ;they gasp and drooling tongue keep their body cool.

 The story of the Mughal emperor Akbar's experiment is suitable example to prove the importance of ear. Akbar himself was illiterate but he was no less than a pandit ; He learnt  only  by listening from the wise  pandit .Once there was dispute among the people about language  : Which language was god-given and noblest of all. 

To solve the problem, Akbar the Great  ordered his minister to collect 10 babies of six months  from the parents  who  have  unique  linguistic difference  and. to keep these ten babies in ten different  sound proof chambers under proper baby-care.  Only the ten deaf and dumb   care-takers. were  appointed  to take care  for. those  babies.  These babies belong to the parents who  followed the language of   Urdu ,Farsi,  Sanskrit ,  Pali, Maithily , brojobuli and some local ,even tribal language. When  the babies  became  five years old.  they were presented in the royal court.  

The court was overcrowded   of the mass  with  high pitch of excitement . To their disappointment  it was found that  all.  those. ten babies  were deaf and dumb ;  none of them could speak  in any language at all .Thus the emperor convinced the common people  that no language could  claim superior to other as  "God's language". All languages were equal.The baby learn  that language  which they listen from the parent or in environment ;  if  they hear nothing as  sound of language   from the beginning of birth ,they would learn  nothing .

         Though. some. people were not happy , but  they couldn't argue Thus  Akbar the Great  solved the dispute of language  peacefully . He was able to run on with  the same "FARSI".  as court language of the country.He reigned from 1556 to  1605 as most popular Mughal emperor,  in spite of being illiterate but wise  only by  listening. He wrote a book named "Akbar-E-Nama" to compromise the conflict  between Hindu-ism and  Islamist.          

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Wednesday, November 3, 2021

Sipra's Diary : Innocence and Ignorance

                                                  INNOCENCENCE vs IGNORANCE

Innocence and Ignorance are not same . But sometime they become so close to each other that we take them in as same . Standing in the cross road or signal of these two terms , I often question myself where is my stand?

...Innocence has some divine smell whereas ignorance emits  foul sin.

I often take such wrong decision  under circumstances (mostly against  own will )and then repent :'Why I was not strong enough to refuse '; why do I end with powerlessness etc. and pretend to comfort myself with 'let it be'!   

"Let it be" is   actually oasis of powerlessness, when everything    around goes awfully wrong,  then it showers self-consolation.

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                                   Madam Curie  

My life runs totally on compromises. I was an avid lover of academic life . Nobody knows still now, that I wanted to be a scientist. ...

...It was a cloudy afternoon. Frequent thunderstorm and lightning sent a notice to stay indoor to all of my  friends. Nobody came to play .I was in grade six.I was packing my school bag following the next day routine.Then I curiously opened a page of the science book where I read that Madam Curie discovered radium ;and there was a picture of  sparking radium.

It was black and white picture .The room was semi dark. I sat infront of the opened door which was less dark to see the picture and read . My father had  transferable job . My school life was short and disturbed .  I passed the Board exam as a private student ,at very young age.I couldn't take the science stream  because I did not attend lab as a regular student .I was so sad to know that !I continued my college life with a sad heart ,down spirited...

I don't know how did I get the degree of B.A with honors in philosophy and then M.A.  I listened attentively  to the lectures of the good Prof   and. took the lecture notes .Sadhana and Archana  were my friends throughout my college life  I spent so little time  and labour that they were worried for me .Perhaps they thought it was their responsibility (or liability )  to fetch 'Honors'. for me .They. collected 'suggestions'   and ten -years'. questions -collection (laborious job)!for me. Surprisingly I graduated with (hons). in Philosophy and  admission in  Calcutta University  for the Master degree  on first list. 

I had high   dengue fever during my examination of MA.My brother- brought  me   in his house from the hostel! 

I remembered I burst into tears   in taxi   on my way  as the thought pierced me that I spoilt so much money of my father! My brother consoled me . He promised that he would read  to help me  preparing  for taking the rest exam......................................................................

              I feel sleepy ; next time   more  to....*****


 



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Saturday, October 2, 2021

Sipra's Diary : My Haiku

       

                                    ' My Haiku'??......


The  most compressed form of verbal expression............................

   (1)

  What an weird but simple expression,

  To a lethal virus Covid-19!

 Wash your hands, stay home ,stay safe!........

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(2)

Words  are  amazing! 

It melts and  soothes the rocky heart, 

also venomous tongue to burn and poisonous teeth to bite .

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   (3)

   Human intellect is at stake ; 

   For the universe is under the spell

   Of giant-tech, Artificial intelligence, (AI)!                              . 

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   Will the illumined mind  

   Be leveled by AI lawnmower under 

   the pseudo -omniscient  tech-giant  ?

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                                            ( 5) 

I took voyage /

Around the world to drink the unexplored beauty

Of nature under the sun and moon- with starlit sky.

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While  missed to notice 

A single  dewdrop dazzles like a diamond 

On a single leaf of grass ,just to my own backyard!

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                                             (7)     .

What originates  Haiku ?

To compress  the  freedom of limitless emotions  

To be strangled  in  suffocation under grave?

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Friday, September 3, 2021

Sipra's Diary: Story of "Marich"

          (  Print out Done)                      MARICH-SAMBAD : Sipra Roy


Some events leave behind deep impression  in mind . I saw a drama titled "Marich-Sambad" long  ago   in Durgapur,   may be at least  30 /35 years back.  Marich was a significant  mythological character of the great Hindu epic Ramayana .This drama was presented  by a famous  intellectual  rising troupe  named  "Nandikar" troupe. 

     Before  watching  it I was curious to think  why  this troupe had chosen a   mythological character which is full of absurdity! What valuable  message could it serve to the audience or society?

 Anyway, I was interested  to watch it as I knew intimately  the pioneer of this troupe  from my college days .

    .'Marich' is an important character  of the epic;  but his presence in the epic is very short and brief. 

 ....If Marich was not there, Sita wouldn't been kidnapped ;if Sita wouldn't been kidnapped , no battle   would have happened between Rama and Ravana; if the battle wouldn't been occurred then the great epic of Ramayana wouldn't  been  ever  materialized !....So You can guess the speciality of this character!

'Marich'  was  endowed with supernatural power  of  bewitchery. He utilized it according to interest, according to situation.  By applying this magical power he changed his form into a golden deer and began to roam in front  of  Sita's  cottage in the forest during the  period of their banishment . Sita was allured to own that  attractive deer and told her wish to Rama.  Though Rama was not willing at all to chase after the deer ,still  he agreed to please Sita.  Before going he kept his younger brother Laksmana.  to guard  and.  take care of Sita.

No. sooner Rama. left,  imitating Rama's voice Marich  started crying ,"o, save me, save me please!" Sita became restless in fear. She said anxiously to  Laksmana,"O my god, your  brother is in danger of life; go , go immediately to help and fetch him."

Laksmana was hesitant to leave Sita alone in the jungle ; But Sita  insisted him to go  with abusing  words ; As  he was compelled to go ,Laksmana  marked a boundary line and warned Sita to stay within the boundary and never   try to  cross beyond it until he returned. 

The rest of the story is well known to all Indians. as :"Sapto-Kando-Ramayana !"

.....As soon as Laksman  left ,Ravana in disguise of monk came to beg from Sita. He stood   purposely beyond the boundary line ;As Sita stepped outside the boundary to offer alms ,Ravana dragged  and kidnapped her to  captivate  in   Sri Lanka,  his own  kingdom.

Story of Ramayana is ancient ; but This character of 'Marich'. still continues to  reign in every country ,in every age with different names, even up to this century.

Political diplomats  and spy are armed  in Machiavellian  policy ;they aptly  bring  secrets from  the  land of enemy in disguise    to  disclose or to disseminate  as required. 

....another special character whose name was 'Bivision'  who supplied the secrets  to the enemy  how to kill  'Kumva-karna' and 'Jarasondho' who   were  too powerful to be defeated.  

The mythological stories have such enigmatic power that they never die. They come back with changed colour .All the modern stories of alien or star-trek /shreck are only metamorphosis of mythological stories.

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Sunday, August 29, 2021

Sipra's Diary: "Stinky Eyes "(July,2024)Repost

 

                 Can eyes be "stinky" ever?  Do eyes have smelling power?

.........Sure. Why not?  If ears and nose can  posses   more powers besides   merely hearing and smelling ,what holds   back  the eyes?   When we  hear the sound of thunder or    some barking  , We can visualize  the sky or a dog nearby .   Similarly we can distinguish the odor of  dead rotten rodent  or fragrance  from   roses from a distance.  There is  such great cooperation between our five senses   that often  they give proxy aptly for the other one ,if   required.  Among our five senses e.g. smell,  ,touch, taste  listening. and seeing , eyes are not only most. powerful but also most cunning  among five senses..

 ......'so  eyes  are opened now' is a well known cliche; , when somebody  becomes aware of his  mistake ; it  means clearing the  ignorance  of slumber, wisdom dawns ;  light  of   true knowledge is  reflected  through eyes. 

Personally, I think eyes acted  as first 'brain' in collaboration with other five senses .It was like the big boss (figuratively) of any corporate company . At  the beginning there was only one eye on the center of facial  top.  It was not enough   to protect own safety or  surveying around broadly.  So. later on , two eyes on the two sides of nose appeared  . The   first. eye  still  exists on the   center  of  our forehead  ;  it  gradually   became invisible  under   skinny  cover ; It is now known as  "Third  Eye".  It is very powerful. It  has intuitive   power;   It has the ability to  apprehend the near future.    The   ancient Yogis  of  India concentrated    deeply   and meditate   on this   Third    Eye :with concentrated mind in meditation the Yogi  could  roam  in their 'subtle' body  in  celestial sphere ....... ..without any rocket ;it is hard to  even  imagine for us !

But ,  let me come back to the point of  'stinky eye'.   We are all aware of   strong   unfriendly  evil looks   that  glanced from stinky eyes

   .Eyes can convey any message efficiently;  they  own this power far before the origin of  language . All emotions ,:love or hate, fear and jealousy, joy or sorrows, enthusiasm  or lethargy are reflected  in eyes without speech.  Eyes of babies are full of innocence ; Just opposite to  devils 'look  that glitter in greed .

The character or mind of a person  can be studied from the glance of eyes . Eyes are the mirror of mind.   This is why snap-shot   of eyes are recorded   in   the  airport  customs-checking  for  the verification of   identity.

I remember one day young couple visited us with their son who was about three years' old.  The kid was touching and playing with the decoration pieces from my show-case almirah; by chance  he dropped and broke some esoteric piece . Though I was   little sad at the behavioral pattern of the unruly boy , I patted the  little boy and said ,"It is fine ,don't worry!" His mother pointed a chair for him.and asked  to sit quietly .  Suddenly the boy cried loudly and embraced  my waist  ;I asked worriedly,"What happen ,why are you crying ?"   

The boy complained with tearful eyes ,"My mother is beating";  

I laughed and replied ,  'Your mother is sitting  on the other side of the center table, far from you ; how can she beat you?  I don't see  her even to  touch you !"

He   still continued  crying and  embarrassed   the  poor mother  by divulging , 

" Yes believe me ,  she is beating me with her eyes! She will punish me severely  after going back to home!"

......Secret of  eye -message came into light to us all!........

Eyes enjoy  lions'. share  in   cases  of love affair . "Love at first sight "  between couple happens  not only in Romantic  novel   but   also random  in our regular   practical life.

Whether platonic love or satanic, momentary or eternal, marital or extra-marital, facebook or whats' App, even latest  bumble or tinder love,  eyes   as cupid  act  multiple roles . Eyes not only dupe   others   with   pretension   but also become victim of  deception  as   sometimes forget  the   warning ,"all that glitters is not gold.' 

 Most women from fourteen   to  late forty's  in their lives have become  victim   several times to  some stinky eyes . Sexy glance from an undeserved person is always shunned with hatred  by women  as they  sense  emitting  foul smell .Both male or female are well aware  of stinky eyes  as receivers,  in the matter of  romance or sex.The   Only  difference is that most women hate and shun it ; while the  male  seem to  be elated  and enjoy it!

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Tuesday, August 24, 2021

Sipra's Diary;(. Mystery of story that remained unrevealed )

                                 

Sipra'sDiary:  (Mystery Of Story That remained Unrevealed  


                                                            LORD SHIVA   AND  KABA

Long long ago.  there lived  a   Hindu king   in  Rajtarangini , near the valley  of  Kasmir,  as came to be known  at present time.  The geographical map of Hindusthan  or India was very much different from now  Pakistan /Afganitan all were included as part of  India or Hindustan. 

The concept of 'country' was too far to be conceived. The land consisted of multiple number of   kingdoms which were ruled by independent   tribal rulers known as kings .They  were often busy  in fighting  between themselves for power and land  ;  the powerful  king used to  conquest   the  weaker rulers and subjugated    their kingdoms  annexed to  his own territory . But there was   also great friendship  among some  of the  kings; they made their bond stronger by setting  matrimonial relationship.  

This   story  happened long  before  the origin of Islam or Christian religion . It happened  perhaps before four / five thousand  years ago,  may be more ancient .Thus strong friendship  and love grew up between two   powerful  kings :  one was  the ruler of the land near to  the  valley of present  Kashmir while the other was  near  Gandhar , now known as Kandahar. In those days Fair was very common  in all these kingdoms  to attract  not only  crowd    or customers   but  it was mainly  important  for  trading  business; Fairs supported the treasury of kingdom  solid , sound and secured.

Fair in Kashmir took place in autumn while in. Gandhar it was in  the month of  October /November. 

 One year , it happened that while the workers of  Kashmir  were cleaning the  huge arena   to pitch tents for the fair. ,they found a black piece of   cylinder-shaped   stone  of rock ; they digged the soil deep. to reach the bottom of the rock; the bottom  was flat triangular shaped platter   upon which the cylinder-rock rested .  The news reached to the king; the king visioned  a  message  from lord "Shiva" in  his dream  declaring:

  " I am "KamaDeba';   I have come to bless the people  of this  kingdom.;   don't cut the adjacent    peepul tree   ;  I  want to  stay under the shadow  of this huge  peepul   tree. "

  But the people of the village demanded to make a temple, carving a peepul tree on it  under the shade of   original peepul tree .The temple was built and the opening ceremony of fair    commenced with the inauguration of the temple  of  KAMADEBA.  .The temple would remain  closed throughout the year but   be opened  only during the time of fair .

This news spread like prairie fire.  When the fair opened in   the land near  the valley of Kashmir ,   People from far and near    overcrowded unimaginably .  Naturally the trading flourished four times more which added   wealth and prosperity to the  royal treasury. All the future years  also went on gloriously .On the  other hand Fair lost its importance and glamour  in Gandhar ; it began to  dwindle and  plummeted  which    made the king  sad   and unpopular to his   subjects..

It made both of the friends  unhappy . None of them want to loose their  unselfish love  and friendship for  material causes .. .

King of Kashmir  realized  that   the popularity   of fair  was due to the devotional attraction of " Kamadev".

Before it turned  into thorn to poison their  relationship,  he proposed to his friend of  Gandhar  that he intended to  send   "Kamadeva " to his kingdom of Kandahar during  the time of his festival  so that it could   attract crowd and traders  in the fair  .The proposal was accepted  cheerfully by  his  friend .

Now the problem was how to move the huge rock long way ?  The local people  and the king's subjects might become angry if god   "Kamadeva " is dislodged  from the temple  So the Hindu king planned to make a huge   ebony wheeled-chest -box with lock in which great Kamdeva would be placed under the cover  of velvet cloth to be  cautious from  easy sight .   

Thus the wheeled box was easily carried like charriot  in the dark of evening by  some hired outsiders to   the land near    Gandhar    before the opening of the Fair .  It was returned to the temple in the same manner.   In those days communication between people of remote land was too rare to  share . Thus the fact remained unknown to both sides of land except the two kings.

    Fair  of  Gandhar   also became  famous, not  merely for  trading but also  as a pilgrimage for " Kamadeva ".  Lots of  childless  women   became mothers after glancing that mystic Rocky  stone  in the chest box .The duration of Fair was for thirty days It used to end on the day just after new-moon.  

The women, both rich and poor ,   became so much biased in their belief that they spent  there  in tents   eating   only  one time some simple fruits and water .The cause of fasting  might be due to    scanty supply  of abundant  food for huge  crowd, or the belief that fasting (or controlling appetite, physical craving )  would shower blessings and better result! 

The two kings continued their   friendly  relationship throughout their life..   Even   the legacy ran uninterrupted through  several generations for  few hundred years .

 But time never stands still  on one place for longer period.   Following the  natural law  the land changed  its geographical features   within few hundred years  due to   natural calamities like earthquake , land -slide , ice-melting, storm , flood , forest-fire etc; Somewhere   mountain raised peak on the plain,  whereas   green pasture turned into desert ; ,  some river dried  and lost their identity  in  the unknown  region, whereas some new river originated. 

Society in ancient time  was   ruled   on   the basis of  "might was  right " principle.  Powerful   king   won over the weaker kingdom   and sometimes  used to become dictator .   The  new  victorious  king shifted   "Kamdeba'    in   wheeled charriot    near to his   own kingdom  which was   little far  from the previous one . 

Time rolled on changes; changes through merging and breaking; through formation and dissolution .   With  civilization ,  lands  were introduced with different names , races, religiosn and languages . Any  language connected to its  land   had reached to its present stage through evolutionary changes.

It is inferred that    "Kabaa"   of Islam Religion  is  like metamorphosis  form of   "Kamadeba ";    "KamDeba" is a Sanskrit word ;   which  was not easy  to pronounce   for   many. So   in course of time   only  " KABAA"  remained,  shedding the middle portion  of he word                  Kamde-ba.

The stone-god without image in chest-box, velvet cover of cloth , Kaba in Mecca ,the season , pilgrims  altogether  have  much relevance with  this  above story. 


                   CHEST_BOX

      :" KAMA"means Sex.  Deva  =. God.  

         KAMADEBA=. God of Sex

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Wednesday, August 11, 2021

Sipra's diary: Aug 11,2021


It is a cloudy afternoon ;  I left the balcony with my tea-cup as frequent sound of thunder and lightning drove me to enter inside the room. or better to say, into my inner-space  with back gear to memory lane..... .but  with whom to share ?  This generation is busy with the  I-phone ;don't like to hear stories from previous generation.

   Internet opens the broad heart  and  unlimited empty space and freedom to drive with /or without 'driving license'; sometimes I become worried to think that destiny of literature  may plunge /or plummet  in near future  into  some prairie land ,  [if not to desert].  where abundant grass will grow to feed  the  herbivores.   

Democracy in literature!.......and 'feminine' in gender and nature : 'for. the women , by the women ,of   the women '..  Recently field of literature is mushroomed    mostly  with lots of  culinary books. and memoirs;  and golden passport for plagiarism...

                             Lots of projects in   my head  gasping ; perhaps they jammed the traffic near signal ;  

but why am I feeling empty? As if nothing to do ! let me wait for the signal light ....

 ...Some  '"once upon a time  vibrant characters'"   from  my   old unfinished fiction are lying on the floor ,uncared ;   I threw a cryptic glance to them;.... hope they are not dead , only in deep slumber ! 

Or let me think  to. start   with  something   new   and fresh .

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Tuesday, August 10, 2021

Sipra's diary: Play-Building. with summer Teens

                                                Title :  COMPROMISE.    Time:  5/6 minutes 

THEME/ /PLOT:   MARRIAGE BETWEEN  CHARACTERS. having different nationalities .

                                               Characters( 3 )

1.     Labiba.... High school student . Bangladesi Hindu...........  (.Role of Bride. )

2.     Sipra........Mother of Labiba.       ( A home-maker )

3.    Carina......High School Student ,Classmate of Labiba..........( Role of groom)

4.    Venue........Manhattan, New York.

Script:

                                                     Act 1, scene (1)                             

                                                                                                          Labiba's mother was watching a afternoon show on TV in her apartment ,and sipping a cup of tea . She looked her wrist-watch twice :it is 4:30AM .Labiba entered the room with her usual shout ]

,"Mom, mom ! sorry for being little late ".she plops herself  on the sofa beside mom ,keeping   aside her backpack ."O you are watching "Everybody loves Raymond!"  

 Mom: " Just for time-pass ; it is   repeatition  of the old episode . She switched off the TV and sat turning  towards Labiba. 

"Shall I bring some snacks for you ?" asked mom.

Labiba : "No ,I am full.;  please be seated here ; I have a great news to share with you ;then hastily inserts her palm into the bag to take out  a cupcake ;  'mom, this is for you, so-o tasty. , yammi" nodded her head  with closed eyes..   

Mom asked with a smile ,"Really ? I am ready to share  your good news; Tell me quickly .  

Labiba drank some water. and clears her throat ; "Hmm, mom our graduation ceremony will happen after two months ".

"you have already  told me that;" 

Labiba rubbed her palms ",hmm ,mom I have decided to marry after the graduation ceremony is over."

Sipra's smile goes off ;she asks in astonishing voice ,"Marry ?   To whom? 

Labiba:" Carina,  my class-mate . he is from China ."  

Mom: What makes you to take such hasty decision, my dear? Where is your ambition to  accomplish   higher education , doing  Phd  in the university of Yale where your   late father served as tenant professor?" 

Labiba :   Don't worry ! I promise  to continue my academic career after marriage ;'Carina is from  a pretty wealthy family;  he will support me financially . He himself is a brilliant student and gets full   scholarship. 

Mom :You are the second generation of immigrant family  and belong to middle class family . We live in this rented  apartment . We bear traditional values but. modern outlook .   What about Carina?

Carina also is immigrant.he was brought up by his grandma as his mother passed away of breast cancer when he was just two years old and father remarried. He was brought up by  his grandmother who owns a soft toys' company of her own .He stays in a nice apartment complex in Harlem bought by his grandma .Though by heritage he is Buddhist but he  believes in spirituality rather than any religion. So I am also, as you know it  ! 

Mom:  He is Chinese, Buddhist and rich. Just as  oil and water  never mixes so is rich and poor never align.  

Labiba:  "Caren never boasts of wealth . We both are Asian ,immigrant and music minded Please focus on theses common.  aspects , mom. We can not retreat anyway from our decision" ."

Mom :"   Well, Tomorrow is  holiday . Let  us   invite him  for dinner ! So that I can have chat with him.

"That's great idea, mom!"  Let me call him now.   [Labiba dialled the number]...

"Hello,  good news for us ; my mom invites you   tomorrow  for  dinner at 6:00 'clock .Is that ok for you ? 

"Hmm, good ,good. I am excited to know that but also. feeling  little nervous  ;after all, it is a matrimonial interview for me ,isn't ?      Labiba  burst into  laughter  .

"  But,  listen ! I have already made some plan for tomorrow . I have booked lunch in a Thai restaurant   for both of us. .at 1 :PM  and then  at 2:30    "Lion King  " a Broadway show  . So. I. think  we will reach for dinner between 6:30 to 7 :PM, instead of  6:PM, (  little late. "

 Please join me before 1:PM  for lunch at "HI FI THAI"restaurant in 8th Avenue.  Bye. "  

Labiba confirmed her mom.

Sipra. :    Labiba , I am thinking to prepare. chili  chicken with chowmin   and  oyster soup ,OK?   But   for dessert ....... 

Labiba,"  Ice  cream!" 

 Mom:  "Icecream with hot choco-bar!

Labiba :  "Excellent! "

(Soliloquoy)...........

Sipra : I have to surrender my ego ;   and  have to  compromise ,   to buy  joy and peace  for my offspring. 

Will Labiba  realize it ever in her life?

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Friday, July 23, 2021

Sipra's Diary: Fragments from Schooldays ( for Pat's MEMOIR Class. July,021)

                                                    My  First School :  Sipra Roy.        

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My  father who was in Railway service, transferred to a cute town of Bihar named Madhupur .My father got accommodation in the 53J.KLGuard Bunglow.The Railway station and its colony was  like a piece of wealthy British neighbourhood. It was the year of 1950 .India just  won freedom from the British rule.  Most  of our neighbors were still pure British in Railway  officers' colony .  Our bungalow was divided in four parts .In one half  we two Indian families shared  while the  other half ,up and down stairs were shared by two British families. There was a broad  wooden stairs  which separated the building  into two halves . In  front of our building was a  church-building , a piece of art, from where the sweet musical  sound of bell entertained my ears  time to time. From the corner of our long balcony ,looking at the church ,I asked my sister what was that building ,was it school? Because I noticed  kids in  sky-blue skirts or shorts and white check shirts. playing within the church-boundary .  Perhaps it was their play-time or tiffin-time.

Quarter-part of the long balcony was  allotted to me as  for  my doll's empire. But  I. used to wait for the bell and watch the   cheerful screaming   of  playful  white kids   in church and cherished in my mind to be a part of it  soon , as I heard discussion  that my father. would take me soon for admission. 

My sister  ,busy with her knitting ,answered, "It is a church   which  is similar as our  temple of Lord Shiva or Kali!  But it also  runs the  school for  the  Christians ."

Though it was not clear  thoroughly to  me  but  after all,  the word "school "  consoled me .At last the day came .  My sister made me ready with dress to go with father for the school.  On the way my father met the pastor giving instruction to the gardener .The pastor in courtsy   came near the gate to greet  my father  They talked a  while ;then my father resumed onward . I asked "where are you going?" 

"School".I said ,"Isn't this my school?"

"No, this is English medium school meant only for the Christians."

At last walking little far my father entered   through  an opened-gate  school premise named "Anchidevi  Girls' school." which was my first school  An  old white colored  building  in the middle of an open  space  with  high -boundary wall . My excitement evaporated to see the appearance of the school ! My father entered the office room . There was a table with several wooden chairs and a bench in one corner of the wall. A tall man whose complexion was dark and distorted face stood up and greeted my father  (and me too!) with broad smile  which  made me comfortable  and shook my nervousness .

He gave me some spelling and arithmetic for  admission - test   for grade -1.  I learnt add, subtract ,  multiplication ,division ; I learnt a lot  than needed for  grade one at home .The teacher  was impressed  and asked my father to admit me directly in grade 2 as I was quite advanced. Perhaps  age was not a bar  at that time .So I came back home with my father like a victor  within half an hour .ON my way back I looked at the Church with sad heart   and contempt  and just released   a sigh   silently.

Friends  of neighbor -hood came running to me at the entrance of the stairs   to ask"Done?"  

My sisters and elder brothers looked at me with bright face and admiration! Same with  the   neighbours  too ! Some of the neighbors threw  opinion  that   I would be in problem  later for  studying  at  under age .

My two elder brothers  ( named Ujjwal and Bimal. )already   had admission in the Boys' High School.  which was a large yellow-color  L-type building with big low-walled compound.  Bimal was very responsible and affectionate type from boyhood.  On the very first day ,my sister asked my brothers to escort me up to  my school. Boys' school started  at 10:30PM  while mine was 1t 10:45 with a prayer song . It was a  day of  mixture of fear and excitement .  

.....Bimal asked me to walk fast with him , holding  my hands  firmly   while Ujjwal ran away  leaving us.  behind  ; I nodded head silently .The Boys 'school was situated nearer than the Girls' School. Between the two schools  there was a large  orchard .  Coming near to  the  corner of the orchard ,Bimal   told  me "can you see your school with green gate ? I am late .Will you be able to go  alone now?" 

"yes,sure .  Came running to the green gate of school, I couldn't enter as the gate was locked from inside.  I pushed with force but failed to bulge it  Then  I turned back to call my brother for help and saw none but the  school building of the  boys' stood , as lifeless  as the  dead ; I was chilled with fear ! what would happen to me!  Pushed the green gate again.  Then I saw a girl smartly entered inside,   by  bending  and unlatching  a small  window like opening in the big green gate.   By instinct,  I  too, instantly pushed myself  behind her back  just like a  calf. It came to my sight that all girls stood in  several lines  according to class-wise  row  on the long veranda , in front  of the five /six class-rooms  for prayer song . As  I  was about to run to join the row I felt a sharp pinch  like almost injection on my heap ; turning head I saw the girl (I followed) : "Hssh, with one  finger on  her lips but  closed eyes warned me, and then again two palms near her chest like a great devotee, and standing like statue. Prayer song started .....the girl threw glance from the corner of only one eye to me. 

"Be like a statue until the prayer ends."

I obeyed  her but kept my eyes opened, perhaps in fear of getting another injection-pinch p!  At the end of the prayer  a lady teacher said something , might be some notice , but I couldn't hear. Then the row moved in a serpentine  course  to corresponding classes. I tried to stand behind a girl moving towards grade 2.  But a girl nudged me hard with her elbow;  she  dragged me  towards  her saying  "you belong to this line : grade -2 .  I know you !  I am Bithu   .You are from the rail-bungalow, right? Our dads are good friends."

I saw a strong built bobbed-hair  smart girl with sharp. eyes and feature . Then she ordered ,"Listen, stop talking with any girl of the colony .From tomorrow you will come with me together in school ,O.K? 

She   finished  her speech in a military order ,and with another  push of elbow before entering  the  class .room ;  no sooner another girl pulled her in the corner and whispered something in her ear .

Bithu, like an eagle threw glance to other corner and said ,"I will see in tiffin time !"

The teacher entered    with a long copy which was registry copy or "Call-book".

All girls took seats  except me.

The teacher greeted me  with broad smile and asked my name .She pointed an   empty   desk as my  seat.

I felt comfortable at  the broad smile .of the teacher.: a  skinny lady with a  green printed cotton sari ;  image  of her broad smile  displaying the  set of big teeth  which were yellowish  with moss-green border like fencing  between teeth.   which guarded the identity of each teeth.  It was a wonder to me how teeth   could grow green lining;   was  it  due to long time  dirt  ? 

The teacher announced me," your roll number is  11  grade -2" .and put a sticker # 11 on my desk.  There   were  another  set   of  several desks   on the  left side of the table which was marked as  grade -1. There were only 5/6 girls leaving few desks empty .

In grade -2 also   had  few empty desks . Perhaps those desks  were for the absentees. That male teacher who took  my admission test entered the class and said something to the teacher ,( might be about  me!) Then before leaving he patted me on   back  in encouraging voice ,"hope you are fine?"  I nodded my head . My class teacher gave   me treat again with that awesome  dental  smile 

First week of school went peacefully. Bithu, that bully  guy,  was absent  in the class  all these days. I was very shy .I took  admission late, in  the mid-session; the rest old students were friendly in small groups; nobody called me to play ; also  all were much older than me; I felt alone.  Though I was   quite advanced  but I could not follow the instruction of the teacher some times .One day she asked to write tables of 8,and 9. I noticed the girl sitting next to me writing in a  different way.  Suddenly the girl saw me watching her copy, asked  "don't you know tables"? I stared at her speechless. She immediately stood and complained to the teacher, "Miss ,She is'nt writing "The teacher came to me and on seeing  the blank page  asked me "don't you learn tables   of 9?"  Though I learnt by heart up to 20, I nodded my head.

Teacher:  "Do you know  tables up to 5?"

I nodded my head again.  Because no sound came from my   dry throat. I felt all the girls were staring at me. Then the teacher took my bag and held my  hand and made me sit in the row of grade- 1.

 Teacher "You are too young for grade 2".   Grade 1 and 2 were in the same room and   under same teacher .Because  number of less students  or scarcity of teachers ,I didn't know.  

I felt terrible insult to think that it is a great insult as well  as  demotion. With heavy heart I came home but didn't  disclose to anybody  of the house. Perhaps I continued about one month   in grade one.

Then one day ,the male teacher entered the class angrily with the roll call  book and crossed the class teacher why she changed my name from grade -2 to grade -1. To my astonishment , my class teacher flatly denied that she did it .They began to argue bitterly . My class teacher  who appeared soft and benign, shouted  against the male teacher for accusing her . He left the class room but came back  again with the registry book . By the time my class teacher promoted me to previous grade -2  again.

The male teacher told to sit hence forward regularly  in grade -2.  I nodded my head  with gratitude.  I was relieved from  pressure, as if , a mountain melted from my chest. But  my young  mind was shrouded  about the image of a teacher to think how  a  teacher could lie!

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Thursday, July 15, 2021

Sipra's Diary: Gotham 's Write (Pr.int) "Knock At The Door"

Words-1,152                  ". Knock At The Door".  by Sipra Roy

         The sun bent towards west, but darkness of evening yet not set; the fusion of day with night or 'dusk ',as we say, is always very sensitive moment  for  me !

     .......I was watching a movie about alien on T.V  and was very much absorbed  in the alien world . This was an incident about 18 or 20  years  back  when  stories about aliens didn't  mushroomed  the movie world . The alien of this movie was. a good and friendly one .It looked like only a ball of light , hardly  conceivable to others.;  though. it could change its form . The story was about a boy named Criss   who was teased by his friends of   both school and neighbourhood   His father. who was researching   on" Aliens. " was   missing from   the.   lab of the small hilly town   all on a sudden. when the boy was only 3/4 years old. He was raised  by his single mom  who was a teacher of elementary school . As the  boy was autistic ,he was teased by the classmates and friends of neighborhood.   Teachers were also not very sympathetic.  to him . Most of them downgraded  him as  back benchers. so the boy criss preferred to stay alone ,and away from teasing friends; He grew up to 15 years by  age  as  a sad  boy . One night Criss lay on bed  ;he felt  somebody covered his body with the quilt and heard a soft voice requested 'will you be my friend?" ......his mother peeped  and was happy to see  Criss lying under the quilt by himself .

He saw nobody  ;'Who are you speaking ? I Cann't see anybody!

"Here  am I,  on your chest".Criss saw  a round-shaped glowing ball of light on the quilt over his chest .  As  he touched the ball ,his palm got soft warm and soothing effect ;he felt celestial joy in body and mind ,

What's your name and  wherefrom are you?

"I am Alien from other planet'. I am sent here to make you cheerful ".

Criss  : You   must show your face to me.

Alien transformed  into a small winged rabbit, just  as soft toys;  he had only one  big  dreamy eye  on  forehead   .which mirrored   love ,  curiosity and kindness ,  for nostrils and mouth,  only three dots   were  on the face !

Criss:  "O my new friend ,tell about your land ,school and friends ;Do your friends teased you and you fled here to avoid them?

Alien. :  "I am sent here to be.  your friend. and to accomplish some other secret  purpose . In time, I will disclose you everything. But  don't disclose  about  me to  anybody ,OK?  I will cleanse the social atmosphere of this town; let us sleep now ; the rest will be tomorrow. ; Your mom  peeped  twice from the. door- curtain ."

Criss was very happy with the new friend from the  other planet !  He became a happiest boy of the town now.   He sang ,played quiz, enjoyed  bath in the hot spring  and got  help  from the new friend in study, school home work etc . Mother was happy to see  all-round improvement of her son and also,  little surprised for this sudden change. One night when the two were reading a comic book and giggling ,mother   noticed  Alien  and came to know the   story .She promised to  Alien  to keep her mouth shut   .....  

Later on she   was thrilled to  know   more important secret  from   the Alien that her husband was alive . Father of Criss was prisoned   by a wicked team of scientists  as he denied to disclose  the password  of his research.The wicked team would  keep  him alive with  care. and caution,    until they got the clue of  research to claim their own "patent" from government  for  fulfilling  their  own material interest . Alien had been sent to rescue father of Criss   from the   criminals  and bring back law and peace to this small town.Hearing this,   mother sighed  with closed eyes ;but shadow of   fearful anxiety   and  light of hope simultaneously  played on her face .

    Surprisingly,  team of friends ,both in school and   neighbourhood  stopped teasing  Criss ; they behaved normal and friendly .The young children of school and neighbourhood  of different race and religion   became friendly with one another.The neighbors of the community were surprised  to notice the change in the behavior of their  children :disciplined, obedient, loyal  not only  to teachers in school premise but also  same and respectful to the elders of the community . There was no more quarrel among children in the playground .Even the meddlesome people abstained from  interfering among themselves.All on a sudden ,peaceful creative environment spread  over the community .

     But  Some people became anxious and restless  to spoil , to destroy  this environment as their importance suddenly dropped  down .   These miscreants were  linked and led  by that wicked  team of scientists.  Somehow  the team  of scientists  suspected the presence of some Alien  in the town.  So they  hired the miscreants to destroy the   unity   and peace  of the town  by theft ,loot, plunder and murder. If they could damage   the unity  among people then  they  would try to know the whereabouts of   Alien by  selecting  a 'spy' from the.  neibourhood . 

Damaging is always easier than to reform . So it happened .The scientists spotted the   house of Criss  with the help of miscreants  and started interrogating   Criss.

 Criss was trembling in fear ; Instantly  Alien turned into a small spot   of pale light,- almost invisible. Alien made invisible to Criss also.  

Then he pushed. Criss and  his mother. into an underground space through a. narrow and long  shadowy stairs;  the space looked like a  lab in  the cave having  many  multicolored  lights as twinkling stars  where the back of a person was seen busy, leaning  before  a screen like computer ;  the person  seemed  very familiar ;   was it her missing husband?...seemed unbelievable!   AS they moved  forward  inside , a  cry of exclaim  came out from the throat  of Criss's mother:    Who are you? The man turned his head ..........

At this  climax point , I startled   to hear the knock at the door ; knock and the door-bell simultaneously!  I was so much engrossed on the screen that I felt ' knock'    shakes  my subtle senses  and. brain too!   Did  the miscreants   reach  here.  ?.....    

As I opened the door ,  my twin    vociferous  grandsons  entered , ( shattering the planet of Alien  ): jumping  and started dancing      with loud shout ,

 " We won the match ! We won the match  today ! "    Throwing their  sweaty jersey  on my face , opened the door of refrigerator  to hunt their favorite   choco-icecream   and might be something more.! 

                                                                                             

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Saturday, July 10, 2021

Fragments from childhood: ((DumDum Airport ))

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I went Dumdum airport with my parent to receive my brother when I was only 6-years old.  My parent left  the view-lounge to  down stairs  to receive my brother. 
Instead of following them, I  continued to stay   with other viewers,  watching  in wonder  the flights from the sky.  This was  the  first time  I. came to "VIEW-LOUNGE "I was totally absorbed in  watching the flights ;......
Suddenly I felt    somebody caught my hair tightly from the back and dragged to the ground floor while I flooded the way pissing in fear. Chilled with fright I thought I was being kidnapped. As I was able to turn,  my head  , I saw the kidnapper was none but my own father!

Later  I came to know  that  my parent  suddenly acknowledged   that I was missing and being anxious, began to search me crazily in the   whole  lobby, all restaurants and shops . Finally , my father found  me   enjoying on the  view-point . My father's    mad behavior  was perhaps a mixture   of catharsis or calming  down   his nervousness ,  his  prolonged  worries ,  anxiety and perhaps, assurance of finding. out  me safe  !  

Sometimes love and affection makes a man a mad cow ;    few moments ago he was dying for me  and his  joy by instinct   was  expressed  in terrorizing  me   like"  reward "as soon as he  found me!
               Love is so amazing!!

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