INNOCENCENCE vs IGNORANCE
Innocence and Ignorance are not same . But sometime they become so close to each other that we take them in as same . Standing in the cross road or signal of these two terms , I often question myself where is my stand?
...Innocence has some divine smell whereas ignorance emits foul sin.
I often take such wrong decision under circumstances (mostly against own will )and then repent :'Why I was not strong enough to refuse '; why do I end with powerlessness etc. and pretend to comfort myself with 'let it be'!
"Let it be" is actually oasis of powerlessness, when everything around goes awfully wrong, then it showers self-consolation.
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Madam Curie
My life runs totally on compromises. I was an avid lover of academic life . Nobody knows still now, that I wanted to be a scientist. ...
...It was a cloudy afternoon. Frequent thunderstorm and lightning sent a notice to stay indoor to all of my friends. Nobody came to play .I was in grade six.I was packing my school bag following the next day routine.Then I curiously opened a page of the science book where I read that Madam Curie discovered radium ;and there was a picture of sparking radium.
It was black and white picture .The room was semi dark. I sat infront of the opened door which was less dark to see the picture and read . My father had transferable job . My school life was short and disturbed . I passed the Board exam as a private student ,at very young age.I couldn't take the science stream because I did not attend lab as a regular student .I was so sad to know that !I continued my college life with a sad heart ,down spirited...
I don't know how did I get the degree of B.A with honors in philosophy and then M.A. I listened attentively to the lectures of the good Prof and. took the lecture notes .Sadhana and Archana were my friends throughout my college life I spent so little time and labour that they were worried for me .Perhaps they thought it was their responsibility (or liability ) to fetch 'Honors'. for me .They. collected 'suggestions' and ten -years'. questions -collection (laborious job)!for me. Surprisingly I graduated with (hons). in Philosophy and admission in Calcutta University for the Master degree on first list.
I had high dengue fever during my examination of MA.My brother- brought me in his house from the hostel!
I remembered I burst into tears in taxi on my way as the thought pierced me that I spoilt so much money of my father! My brother consoled me . He promised that he would read to help me preparing for taking the rest exam......................................................................
I feel sleepy ; next time more to....*****
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